Again and Again

I'm frozen as my life is bursting into flames from deep within
I panic worrying about the future
Then the path begins to chase me down
But this time you're the only one around
And I'm staring at a photograph from before
I was sick and addicted to you
It was a perfect life
Whatever happened to me?

I can't get out of my way
(Again and again)
Cuz I'm addicted again
(Again and Again)
Because I did it without you
How will I live through today

I'm standing at the edge of my life again
Afraid of jumping in
And you're there covering all my holes
I went and carved into myself again
Whatever happened to me?

I can't get out of my way
(Again and again)
Cuz I'm addicted again
(Again and Again)
Because I did it without you
how I will I live through
I know that I will find a way

Again and Again
Again and Again

If I was born to lose it all
I would have given up
But there's a fire in my heart
I can't put it out

Sometimes the future's blurry
Because sometimes our perfect lies
Get lost inside ourselves

I can't get out of my way
(Again and again)
Cuz I'm addicted again
(Again and Again)
Because I did it without you
how I will I live through
I know that I will find a way
(Again and Again)
Cuz I'm addicted again
(Again and Again)
Because I did it without you
how I will live through today...

MADINA LAKE - Adalia

She wraps her tragic moments tightly around her neck
Then she hangs herself with them as I try to disconnect
Cuz she wants to choke on her life again
Breathing it in like a deadly poison

She cries
cause she's lost
and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes grow cold
as she begs the world to just let her go

But I won't let her go

She lives and breathes in a world that brought her to her knees
And now I'm addicted to her cuz that girl is just like me
And I'm gonna choke on her life again

I'm breathing it in like a deadly poison
I just want to get through to her
Before her last breath

She cries cause
she's lost
and she doesn't even know what she wants
Her eyes grow cold
as she begs the world to just let her go

She cries
cause she's lost
and she doesn't even know what she wants
And she hides
all alone
inside the pain that she wont let go

Watching her life pass her by,
watching it all through her watering eyes
But I'll be chasing dragonflies from her darkest skies
until the day she dies

MADINA LAKE - Escape From Here

I just need something that'll take me away

I'd throw my heart into your fire, when i was blind
And you knew that I'd come crawling back
and you knew you'd always find me there
But this time some things are gonna change, I'm breaking out
And I know someday I'll be ok
and I know someday I'll stand again
But this won't be the end of me

Cuz I'm breaking away

I just need something that'll take me away
To help me disconnect
to get you off my mind
I just need something that'll give me the strength
to get away from you
To escape from here

And as I'm sifting through the ash, I find myself
And you knew that I'd come crawling back
and you knew you'd always find me there
But I'm sure you're never gonna change
cuz you've learned this all before
And I know that you'll come crawling back
but I swear you'll never find me there

I just need something that'll take me away
To help me disconnect
to get you off my mind
I just need something that'll give me the strength
to get away from you
To escape from here

What was I awaiting for
the years went flying by me
And I can't ever get them back
What was I afraid of
I just want to live my life while I'm still alive
Cuz I'm still alive

I just need something that will make me numb
To help me dissapear
to anywhere but here

You'll break away

I just need something that'll take me away
To help me disconnect
to get you off my mind
I just need something that'll give me the strength
to get away from you
To escape from here

For now I'm fine, for now
I just want to live my life while I'm alive
For now I'm fine, for now
I just want to live my life while I'm alive

MADINA LAKE - Here I Stand

My hands shake cuz today
I know you're gonna break my heart and
My life without you in it
is a life that's not worth living
I'll be strong but I wish I was someone else
Anyone but me
Tonight

Here I stand
All alone
Tonight
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe
Without you
In my life
and I wish I was anyone but me

So I'll start to pretend I'm okay
But you should know by now that
My life is smoke and mirrors
One thing is crystal clear
That I'm the one wishing I was someone else
Anyone but me
Tonight

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you (Here I stand)
In my life (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me

Where do we go?
Where do we go?

Inside I start to fall apart. (Where do we go?)
And I'll pretend I'm holding on (Where do we go?)
So I guess I'll bleed in silence (In silence)
I guess I'll bleed in silence

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you (Here I stand)
In my life (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me

Here I stand (Here I stand)
All alone, (Here I stand)
Tonight (Here I stand)
And I wish I was strong enough to breathe (Here I stand)
Without you (Here I stand)
In my life (Here I stand)
I wish I was anyone but me.

MADINA LAKE - House of Cards

It's late at night and the world's asleep
And I'm trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
I'm thinking what is wrong with me
Because the only thing I know
About honesty
Is every lie I've told
That you believed

I'm afraid
to be alone
I'm afraid
That one day you'll find out

And you'd be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'd be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's the flame in a house of cards

Now I can't look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But I just can't cuz

I'm afraid
to be alone
I'm afraid
That one day you'll find out

And you'd be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'd be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's the flame in a house of cards

It's such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz I'm trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Or is this me
No

(inaudible)

And you'd be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'd be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
But I'm too afraid to come clean
My life's the flame in a house of cards

You'd be amazed
You'd be amazed

MADINA LAKE - In Another Life

I remember our first kiss
the butterflies I know you felt them too
I can still taste your lips
that night I wrapped up all my love in you
but deep inside
I always knew
the sadness around you was deadly
I must hate myself
cuz I also knew one day you'd destroy me

But there's something I've gotta know
before we say goodbye
Will I see you again
Somewhere in another life

I remember our first fight
your skeletons were all up over you
I can still taste that night
when you told me you'd been
beat up and abused

You'd hide it all
bruised mouths don't talk
it's not your fault, it was never your fault

that evil world
for an innocent girl
it's not your fault, it was never your fault

But there's something I've gotta know
before we say goodbye
Will I see you again
Somewhere in another life

I'm gonna try to be okay
but I need you to know
wherever you are now
That here you were adored

You were always great
at running away
But you said forever
you promised forever
I forgive you
I've forgiven you
and now I just miss you
I'll always remember you

GO

Oh, sleep in peace.

But there's something I've gotta know
before we say goodbye
Will I see you again
Somewhere in another life
I'm gonna try to be okay
but I need you to know
wherever you are now
That here you were adored

MADINA LAKE - Me vs. The World

Sometimes I try not to hate myself
For everything I never said
when you were here
And so I'm burning up photographs
Of what was a perfect past
cuz I'm still here
But I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
choking on the difference
between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
and I wish you were here

Its so hard that I try to bury it
Pretend that you didn't exist
so I can be strong
But I feel sick
And I feel diseased
Cuz everyone abandons me
And I can't move along
cuz I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
choking on the difference
between me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt
and I wish you were here

I can not pretend you didn't exist
Misery is just a state of mind
Hiding from the world's no way to live
So I'll convince myself that I'll be fine
I'll be fine
But since I lost you I'm barely holding on

Where did I go wrong
choking on the difference between
me and the world
And ever since you've been gone
I've been torn apart
I know that you can't hear me but
I'm still hurt

So I look up to the stars
And wonder out loud
Why everything I had in life
has fallen from my arms
Can you even hear this song
I'm screaming at the clouds
Screaming to a galaxy
that never cared at all
that I need you here

MADINA LAKE - Morning Sadness

Cut my eyes on visions of you
Memories aren't clear
I lost touch with the boy I knew
while you were still here

Have you met your god
does he know I'm in pain
does he even have any plans
for me to see you again

Morning sadness
so we meet again
pack your bags cuz we're leaving
tonight

Damage done by a lost loved one
you can never forget
Questioning my faith in God
I know evil exists

So I look past the sky
it's where we're going tonight

Morning sadness
so we meet again
pack your bags cuz we're leaving
tonight
on a mission to find her in heaven
maybe we'll get to sleep next to God tonight

there's a razor with my name
it carves my life away
and I'll find out who's real
right now

Morning sadness
so we meet again
pack your bags cuz we're leaving
it's the only way
to untie the pain
from a heart that has suffered
it's the only way
to untie the pain
from a mind that is strangled

MADINA LAKE - Now or Never

Too long in the same place
I'm sinking into this town
I've charmed the same old snakes
I think we gotta get out
Before I break away from me
this place is my lobotomy
and imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
And not to close my eyes
While everything burns

What are we waiting for
These years are dying slowly
Today is still in front of us
(And we're breaking out)
Today is now or never

I can't contemplate the earth
All while my heads in the sand
Cuz I've been buried alive
So take my bleeding hands
And breathe life into me
Cuz right now I'm suffocating
And imagine we were dead
Counting all the things we never did

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
not to close my eyes while
Everything burns

What are we waiting for
These years are dying slowly
Today is still in front of us
(And we're breaking out)
Today is now or never

I don't want a life of agony
I wont be another tragedy
And close my eyes while everything burns
And I won't pretend I don't exist
Invisible until I turn to dust
Open your eyes we're still alive
(We're still alive)

Standing still is criminal
And never lasts forever
The safest place in life is now
Today's the day we're breaking out

I remember when you told me
I should live like I'm dying
not to close my eyes
While everything burns

What are we waiting for
These years are dying slowly
Today is still in front of us
(And we're breaking out)
Today is now or never

What are we waiting for (are we waiting for)
What are we waiting for
Today is still in front of us
(And we're breaking out)
Today is now or never

MADINA LAKE - One Last Kiss

She looked at me, her eyes were watering
That's when I knew that this was about to end
Frozen in that moment, time was standing still
And I could feel my heart, sinking and fragile

Goodbye, she said
I went and found somebody new

But I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love you're giving me up

She walked away and I could hardly breathe
I turn around and fell down to my knees
I'm shivering as the truth is settling
Her tomorrow has nothing to do with me
I knew someday
that you'd find someone else's lips
But before, you go
Could you just leave me one last kiss

Cuz I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love you're giving me up

And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cuz I'm all alone this time

Cuz I'm all alone this time
I'm all alone this time

I remember when you were falling
And I was there just holding onto you
And I'll remember all those
scars I wear that you carved in me

I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, my love is giving me up

And I can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I can't lie still
Cuz I'm all alone this time

Cuz I'm all alone this time
I'm all alone this time

MADINA LAKE - Pandora

The way you dance it turns me on
but you know that I'm spoken for
the way the sweat drips off your chest
you know that I'm wanting more

The lust, the sex, the heat this sweat
and nothing else matters
but you and me without your dress
I already forgot her

You, you have no idea what you do to me
and you, you have no idea what your doing to me

Pandora

I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
and I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
but I know that I'll regret what I did
and I know i'll regret it forever as I throw my life away, pandora

The girl I love sits at home
and I know that shes lonely
but I'm watching you take off your clothes
your the star of this moment
the love the hate the guilt my fate
is hanging in the balance
you, you have no idea what you do to me
(pandora)
and you, you don't even care what she means to me

pandora

I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
and I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
but I know that I'll regret what I did
and I know I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away, pandora

And by the time that I come home
shes already sleeping
sit on the bed and take off my clothes
my nerves they're shaking
the lust, the sex, the heat, this sweat
your body is quaking
the love, the hate, the guilt, my fate
against this temptress

I'm a shame, ashamed

Pandora

I don't know how you charmed your way into my heart
and I don't know how you snuck your way into my arms
but I know that I'll regret what I did
and I know that I'll regret it forever as I throw my life away
(forever as I throw my life away)
forever as I throw my life away

Pandora

MADINA LAKE - River People

I'll take your crystal ball
and make this crystal clear
that I won't sit back
and I won't drown right here
I'll never wait
I'll make a million mistakes
but to be content is to be a disgrace

restless, faceless
you've lost your mind
faithless, tortured
you've lost your mind

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones
if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul
if you let them, then they'll take yours

You think it feels better on the other side
cause their grass is green
and your grass is diseased
every day drowns in lethargy
but to be content is to burn your wings

faithless, tortured
you've lost your mind

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones
if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul
if you let them, then they'll take yours

when you die you want the world to remember you for who you really are
and when you die you want to love yourself cause you'll be all alone

they crawl in your head
they dig in your bones
if you let them, they wont let go
they have no hope
they have no soul
if you let them, then they'll take yours

(I'll take your crystal ball)
It's all in your head
don't fear the unknown,
cause you'll let the unknown take control
(you'll make it crystal clear)
so let yourself go
and let yourself grow
don't you let them dig you a hole

oh
restless, faceless
you've lost your mind
faithless, tortured
you've lost your mind

MADINA LAKE - Stars

We walk past the dead end street
atop the hill so we can be alone
Under the moon its beautiful
the stars clear the black of night
when I’m with you
and nervously I take your hands
and promise you I'll take you for a ride

And someday we'll have it all
you and me we're gonna be stars

We’ll run away from everything you hate
(Run away)
to everything you wanted
take my hand, let's get famous
We'll run away from everything you've fought
(Run away)
to everything you love
take my hand, lets get famous

I’m amazed how things can change
How the real world can chase our dreams away
But how did you give up so easily
Cuz I’d rather make them bury me
so let's

Run away from everything you hate
(Run away)
to everything you wanted
take my hand, let's get famous
We'll run away from everything you've fought
(Run away)
to everything you love
take my hand, lets get famous

Our names in lights across the sky
it's beautiful
and our whole lives will be headlines
across the whole world

I can't let you live
You're just a ghost
and I'm feeling sick inside my head
You won't feel a thing
I'll cover up your eyes
as I bury you I know
I'll bury this under drowning eyes
and I'll carry it till the day I die

We’ll run away from everything you hate
(Run away)
to everything you wanted
take my hand, let's get famous
We'll run away from everything you've fought
(Run away)
to everything you love
take my hand, lets get famous

MADINA LAKE - True Love

If I lost it all in a fireball
would you be there for me
if the money's gone
and the future falls
would you walk away
cause my confidence is vanishing
will you leave me starving here
to wither down and disappear
as you walk away

(Let me go, let me live, just leave me alone, buried here, next to love, on my own)
I'll never trust
never feel
never love again
With just this bitter taste in mind

They always say true love is all you need
but when true love is gone
(can we go on)
They say true love would never leave
but my true love is gone
and I can't go on

I'm in the catacombs of a broken heart
where you used to be
when I loved you for all the reasons
that you hated yourself
cause you were desperate and pathetic
but just as beautiful to me
as the day you left
and I became just a memory

(Let me go, let me live, just leave me alone, buried here, next to love, on my own)
I'll never trust
never feel
never love again
With just this bitter taste in mind

They always say true love is all you need
but when true love is gone
(can we go on)
They say true love would never leave
but my true love is gone
and I can't go on

And now it's 2am and I'm picturing
the way things used to be
but all I see is you looking at him
like you used to look at me

They always say true love is all you need
but when true love is gone
(can we go on)
They say true love would never leave
but my true love is gone
and I can't go on
I can't go on